Easter Talk…

…here is HOPE.

This is a talk I gave on Easter Sunday 2019. At the end of my talk I ended with my testimony by singing Here Is Hope. The lyrics are included here - but the Rob Gardner recording is incredibly beautiful. Completely worth the listen.

In order to talk about what I know and how I feel about the Resurrection - I need to share a little about my spiritual journey. 

There comes a time in each of our lives where we need to do what I call “rebuild our spirituality”. That action, that rebuilding, looks different for everyone. The catalyst for spiritual rebuilding is individual. Rebuilding our spirituality allows each of us to learn, grow, listen, find, change, but most importantly choose. I can only speak and share what that rebuilding looks like for me.

From my earliest memories, I have created a spiritual tower — and in my mind it looks like a tower built with the wooden building blocks from kindergarten — labeled with testimony, Holy Ghost, temples, prophets, tithing, family, love, Heavenly Father, Jesus, modesty, right/wrong, perfection, judgement, service, and selflessness — and so many others. 

For the most part, this original tower has served me well, until it wasn’t — until I didn’t really know what I had in my tower, why it was there, or how I was using it. 

It tumbled - the whole tower crashed down to the ground. What I had known about my spirituality was scattered - every piece was upended and in disarray. I felt lost, abandoned, disillusioned, and spiritually weary. 

I didn’t know the perfect answer to my spiritual disaster, I didn’t know where to start healing, and I didn’t know if I would be successful if I tried. Through all the worry, there was one thought that kept me from running away and ignoring those blocks all over the ground.

HOPE in Jesus Christ.

“He is not here; he has risen, as he said.”  — that is HOPE is Jesus Christ.

“He is not here, BUT is risen.” — that is HOPE in Jesus Christ.

This HOPE in Jesus Christ has given me the courage to start to rebuild my spiritual tower with Jesus Christ as the foundational piece. And HOPE being the very next block.

I’m sure some of you are thinking — duh — of course that is the way to do it — we talk about it, we sing about it, we should know that. Jesus Christ is our sure foundation.

Sure, maybe I did know it — but did I feel it. Did I feel the peace, strength, and HOPE that only the Savior of the world can provide? 

That is why rebuilding my spiritual tower now is so different, I’m using my agency to choose where the pieces go, and to choose what is most important to me. I’m using personal revelation to feel and understand and build a spiritual tower that is all mine. It doesn’t look like anyone else — and that’s the way it should be.

With that new spiritual tower in my mind and with Jesus Christ as the foundation, I looked at both the word Resurrection and the event of the Resurrection. How did I feel about the event? What was the most important part to me?

The story of the Resurrection is beautiful and engaging and I loved the account in Jesus The Christ. I have never even cracked that book open, fearing that the big words and details would be overwhelming to me and I would learn nothing. I took Phillip’s advice and read most of Chapter 37, The Resurrection and the Ascension. Try it. It’s not too much. It paints a story of love, kindness, compassion, sisterhood, brotherhood, but most of all HOPE.

For me, the soldiers and the angels at the tomb tell of HOPE. 

The women coming to anoint the body of Jesus, but finding nothing but an angel of God speaks of HOPE. 

The disciples rushing to the tomb to find only pieces of cloth looks like HOPE. 

Sweet Mary staying behind to mourn her loss, but being comforted by angels shows HOPE. 

Jesus Christ showing so much love and compassion for Mary - “Woman, why weepest thou?” he asks — then showing himself to her to ease her broken heart — that is a PROMISE of HOPE.

The Resurrection equals HOPE. The Resurrection is the pure love of our Savior -- to us. In my mind, when I hear or see the word resurrection, I only see the Son of God, loving us unconditionally. I see his face and feel his love and HOPE.

The HOPE of the Resurrection can be testified to each of us in many different ways. It’s uniqueness and individuality, is what makes the Resurrection of Jesus Christ so beautiful, so poignant, so sacred to each of us.

If you have lost a child or a spouse — the HOPE of the Resurrection can bring you comfort.

If you have suffered at the hand of another — the HOPE of the Resurrection can bring you healing.

If you are struggling with depression or anxiety — the HOPE of the Resurrection can bring you guidance.

If the confusion between culture and doctrine is causing doubt and heart anguish — the HOPE of the Resurrection can bring you peace.

If you are looking for answers — the HOPE of the Resurrection can bring you knowledge.

If you are fighting to learn of the power of agency — the HOPE of the Resurrection can bring you strength.

If you are beginning to believe that you have value, that you are worthy just like you are — the HOPE of the Resurrection can bring you love.

That’s what I know on this Easter Sunday — HOPE in Jesus Christ will save us.

I KNOW that the Savior of the World loves each one of us, today, right now, exactly how we are. The HOPE he provides will help us to rise when we fall, feel when we are empty, love when we are in pain, and find a glimmer of hope when we feel all is lost.

We can feel his hope today, HERE.

As part of my spiritual rebuilding I have looked for ways to feel the Savior more in my life. I’ve been searching for signs of HOPE to help myself connect it all together in my heart. In Rob Gardner’s Lamb Of God, there is a beautiful song sung by Mary, the mother of Jesus entitled — Here is Hope. As I listened to his concert last week, the words of this song touched my soul and made HOPE come alive for me. Not only is this song talking about the love and sacrifice the Savior made for us then - but I also think it can apply to the here and now. 

Here is HOPE. HERE the Savior can heal our sorrows and carry our burdens. He and the HOPE he brings is our victory. Here, today, the resurrection of the Savior of the World can bring us light and life. 

He is HOPE. 

Here is HOPE.

Here is Hope - from Rob Gardner’s “Lamb of God”

He who healed our sorrows

Here was bruised and broken.

He whose love no end knows

Here was forsaken,

Left all alone.

Here despair cries boldly,

Claiming this its vict’ry.

Sweeter peace enfolds me:

Hope did not die here,

But here was given.

Here is Hope.

He who was rejected,

He knows well my longing

He, so long expected

Carried our burdens,

Bore ev’ry sorrow:

Here, here, here is Hope!

Spoken:

Here is love unbounded,

Here is all compassion,

Here is mercy founded!

Hope did not die here,

But here was given;

And ours is the vict’ry.

Here is Hope.

Personal Revelation is…

…personal.


This is a Sacrament Meeting talk I gave in the 76th Ward in April 2019. Phillip needed a companion speaker and he asked me. It was an honor and a privilege.

Posting this feels a lot more vulnerable than speaking to an entire congregation, but if we don't practice vulnerability, then we will never learn what it looks like and feels like for us.

I am grateful to be here, though I do wish you were all under 12 or I was singing, then my confidence would wax strong.

The two main points I want to make today are:

1)Personal revelation is PERSONAL. It’s between me and God. He wants to provide me with what I need.

2)Personal revelation is PERSONAL. It will not look like anyone else’s and that is God’s intent. There is no room for comparison in personal revelation.

Too often we wait for the beautifully crafted General Conference quotes created by well intended saints that are plastered all over Instagram, Facebook, and Pinterest. Those quotes, though effective and true, might not be what you personally need. They might not be the revelation that God has in store for you. Just like with faith and testimony, we cannot and should not rely on the revelation of others to build our, personal spiritual foundation.

Of course we need help and guidance and ideas and starting points from others. We are each here on this earth to share with one another how we feel and what we know. We want to encourage each other and have our hearts connect on a spiritual level. That feels right, and increases our strength. Those are really great places to start. But we need to develop revelation that is personal to us.

Back to General Conference ---- To find the personal revelation that I seek, I have a goal to re-read each general conference talk and take the time to search for the pieces of personal revelation that I need in my life. The pieces I choose are going to be different than yours. This goal can take as long as I need and I can repeat it as often as I need. I might try searching for a specific theme, idea, or topic that is weighing on my mind and heart. 

For me, right now - that would be prayer. What I need to learn and know about prayer — is not what you need to know about prayer right now. I need to learn, feel, and connect with God through prayer, but I need help getting there.

You might be confident and comfortable with how, when, and where you pray. You might already know and be able to communicate with our Heavenly Parents in a way that you can feel their love and in a way that you can feel the strength of our Savior as you close a prayer in his name. I’m not there yet. 

I have a difficult time connecting with the traditional method of prayer. It feels forced and formal and that if I don’t do it exactly right, then it’s not going to work. That belief has nothing to do with my faith, obedience, righteousness or desire. I have finally stopped beating myself up for struggling so much with it and constantly comparing myself with others and how they feel about prayer. I get to use my agency and learn how to pray in a way that I can feel God’s love for me. I’m looking for personal revelation about prayer.

I have a constant prayer in my heart. I like to call them heart whispers. I have a deal with God that he KNOWS that I am listening as much as I’m able for His guidance and help — though my knees never hit the floor and my arms seldom fold in the traditional sense, and I am not able to enter any secret closets. 

I have been earnestly looking for guidance and personal revelation to better understand the power of prayer. I found it in the most unexpected place. 

Jan, a friend not of our faith, said a prayer via text that was incredibly heartfelt and humble. I KNEW that God heard every word she wrote. I could feel it in my soul. Every word was directly from her heart and that prayer spoke to my spirit in a way that I am eternally grateful for.

This is what she typed:

Heavenly Father - we are all beautiful works in progress. Today I ask that you show each of my survivor sisters a beautiful piece of themselves that might have been hidden by our fears and sadness. Lord these women are brave and strong beyond words. I ask that you bless each one of them with peace beyond measure. In Your Holy and precious name. Amen.

I needed that prayer that day. I have never had the experience of someone (other than myself) pray especially for me. That experience changed how I viewed prayer. She made it personal. She made it heartfelt. She made it mean something. It was humble and meek and full of all the love she had for me and the other women she was praying for.

God told me through personal revelation that the sweet simplicity of that prayer was what I was so desperately searching for. It also told me that I needed to practice that kind of genuine prayer that had no formality, or form, but was filled will love and a desire to communicate with my Heavenly Parents. So I practiced. These same women were struggling on a different day many weeks later and I prayed for them in our text thread. For the first time in a long while, I was able to feel that God heard my prayer and that he was proud of my learning, my efforts, and putting my personal revelation into play.

The beauty of the new Come Follow Me study guide is that it’s all about personal revelation. It never tells me what I should learn, or what I am “supposed” to learn, but it gives me guidance and ideas and this allows me to use my agency to find what I need right now. It specifically states at the beginning of each week - RECORD YOUR IMPRESSIONS. What a gift that is! What a privilege it is to use my agency to search for and then choose the teaching from the scriptures that I need right now — that is my personal revelation.

For these last two weeks the Come Follow Me theme was “Thou Art the Christ”. As I glance through the specific topics I can use my desire for personal revelation to guide me to what is most important for me right now. 

1- A Testimony of Jesus Christ comes by Revelation — that is important to me as I rebuild my spirituality tower with Jesus Christ being the foundation.

2-What happened on the Mount of Transfiguration? I’m sure that’s important, but I honestly don’t care right now. And my agency allows that to be ok for me.

3-What are the “keys of the kingdom of heaven”? Meh — I don’t need that right now either — but you might and that’s ok — the gift of agency. 

4-“When seeking greater faith, I must first hold on to the faith I already have.” THIS — This is what I’m looking for to rebuild my spiritual tower, to figure out where faith fits in that tower and how I need to use it. I need personal revelation on faith.

Personal revelation is PERSONAL.

Circling back to General Conference, in April 2018, President Nelson, gave a talk on revelation and I read through it yesterday --- and with this talk in mind, choose a few pieces of personal revelation that I need today, right now, this week.This is what I found:

1)Choose to do the spiritual work required to enjoy the gift of the Holy Ghost.

2)The privilege of receiving revelation is one of the greatest gifts of God to His children. 

3)Imagine the miracle of it! ------ In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen